Formidable Female

A discussion I had with my husband last night really lit a fire in my chest.  We were discussing what it takes to raise children in what we consider, "The Last Days".  The days before Jesus Christ will return and we will ALL know the truth, have the answers and figure it out FINALLY.

In our dissection of the order and manifestation of things as 'they really are' we feel like it is time to "shore up".  What does that mean exactly?  It means its time to be 'on guard' and 'defensive' and 'proactive' in our resources and energy issued to protect our family.

It is time to be ready to fight.

Fight for what is worthy and good and true, is what I mean.  Our job as parents INCLUDES fighting.  We absolutely have to.  Evil abounds, Satan knows what he is doing, and we can't ignore the fact that we have to be prepared and 'armed' for battle.

Oh, do I ever struggle.... I do.  There is a part of me that is just a fighter.  By definition, I am a warrior.  I am.  It is just in my construction.  I feel a great inclination to defend my children and home at every cost. I am a formidible female, on guard, on watch and ready.  I have an extremely fierce and fiery side.  In my core, I am a protector.

Yet, truly, I am only strong because my life has value immeasurable.  I glean strength from the structure of our home.  Marc is the leader, hands down.  I feel stronger because I know for a fact that he has us under his protection.  I feel emboldened knowing he will ALWAYS be our protector.  Thus, I feel I am truly capable to fight for what we know is right in our family.

And...

My nature is very feminine, lovely, beautiful and sweet.  That is who I am too. 

Thus this particular conflict within my own definition.

 I struggle like crazy with both sides. 

My conclusion last night became audible for the first time.

It is:

I am a fighter.  I was made to be fierce and bold and indomitable. 

It is that way because  what I am protecting is so, so good and so beautiful and so rare.

A righteous family.

Its time to shore up and be fierce and unfailing with truth.

and

I am feminine, thus by divine design to allow my perceptions and nurturing to be honored.  I trust my womanly instincts better than I ever have before.  I can tell the difference between emotive rants and true intuition.  These too, make me more formidable.

Both

I

NEED

BOTH

With both fight and femininity I can create and protect God's most important institution.

The family.

I am beginning to understand that I came this way for a reason.

A very important one, not to be ignored or denied.

I'm a warrior fighting for my family.

Every single day.

Dukes Up Baby